Fall is here…

Fall is such a beautiful time! i LOVE fall it’s one of my favorite seasons next to spring summer and winter…haha jk.  I’m  not a big fan of winter it’s too cold (except when i’m in a snow suit playing in the snow )! I wish it would stop raining so i could get some sweet pictures of the changing leaves…it’s GORGEOUS.  Every day when i go to work i look at the leaves and i have to remember to breath because the colors are so breathtaking.  I could sit at one tree all day and marvel at it’s beauty whenever this time of year comes.  The colors are so bold and when they’re against the background of the gray sky it’s perfect.  Nature is wonderfully beautiful and i must say God is surely fantastical .

till next time…

-miyeC

What’s next?

I finished elementary school, breezed through middle school, traveled through high school, and climbed my way out of college…so…what’s next? Where do i go from here? the past 22 years of my life I’ve always had the next step planned for me, but after college the next step  is up to me.  Wait a second…me?!  I have to decide on my own what to do? are you kidding?! haha this is why i think graduating college is one of the most scariest times in life…or most exciting, it all depends on how you look at it i guess.

Lately I’ve been feeling stuck, trapped, tied down, and just wanting to escape.  What do i want to escape from? To be honest i don’t really know, my current life I suppose. I  just feel like there’s so much more out there for me to experience other than going to work everyday, filing charts, answering phones, scheduling appointments and getting sucked into this routine life in an  overly populated “ideal” suburban world known as NoVa.  It’s a nice place to live, it’s safe, clean, it’s where i grew up, but it’s no longer home to me.  I’ve changed a lot these past four years and I think I’m noticing it now more than ever.  I used to think i could live up here forever and be happy, but lately all i want to do is escape.  I’m trying really hard to give it a fair chance but it’s turning out to be harder than i thought it would be.  I have a few escape plans in the works…but those will have to remain confidential for the time being

til next time…

-miyeC

My mom and pizza :)

so my mom came into my room today and told me to order some pijja

(the whole convo is in korean)
so i said: “what kind of pizza?”
mom: “doh-minion pijja”
me: “huh?”
mom: “doh-minion pijja…you know doh-minion”

after pondering a bit…

doh-minion pijja = domino’s pizza

hahahah so tonight is “doh-minion pijja” for dinner
i love my mom <3

-miyeC

“Misery Loves Company”

Many of you know how I feel about my post-grad life and how i don’t like living in nova and working yatta yatta blah blah blah.  I think i talk about it enough that it’s crazy old news by now.  Anyways, since graduating i’ve been feeling really distant from people because i guess i kinda feel like no one really understands what i’m going through and i feel alone in all of this [I know there have been people that have gone through it already and know i how i feel, but it's not the same as if they were going through it with me right now].  Well, i’ve found encouragement through reading people’s blogs at work today [i was in the office alone from 8-12:30 with nothing to do but wait for the phone to ring] and I found that even though people aren’t going through EXACTLY what I am, they still feel the way i do, or will feel the way i do.  One entry i was reading was talking about fear of entering into post-grad life and how they don’t know what they’re gonna do and i can identify with that.  I’ve also talked with people and they tell me how they don’t know what they’re doing with their life, and HEY i feel that way TOO! hahaha and as odd as it seems [but not really] it’s nice to know there are people out there like me and can in some way understand even though they’re not going through the same thing i am.  Thanks for the company people, misery loves it

also, i’m not really miserable, just….shrug I’m giving this a chance and so far, it’s not too bad.  Til next time….

-miyeC

Desert Song- Hillsong

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow

Being in nova has been tough i’ve been having college-life/ richmond withdrawl.  It’s kind of a sucky feeling, but this song helps me  to focus on the fact that it’s not about where i’m at or who’s around me that will make me “happy” or feel complete, but it’s Christ, my creator, lover, and friend.  Therefore, “all of my life in every season He is still God and I have a reason to sing, i have a reason to worship.”  It’s been a desert for me, and i think it may be for awhile, but it’s only temporary and i’m looking forward to what God has planned for me in the coming seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks months, years and beyond

hope you enjoyed

-miyeC

Update.

Well, since my last post a lot of things have been going on and at the same time not a lot of things have been going on.  haha if that makes any sense.  It is safe for me to say that I am now a graduate of the class of 2009 at VCU! wahoo! I have a bachelors degree in Psychology (don’t really know what I’m gonna be doing with that in case you’re wondering) and can officially call myself an alumna…eww. Since then i have been searching for jobs and so far have been unsuccessful, however, i will not lose hope.  What kind of job am I looking for? Honestly, anything or anyone that will hire, so if you know someone that needs an employee, i’m available .  While searching for jobs i’ve just been soaking in the no responsibility part of my summer.  No concrete plans, no deadlines, no homework, nothing.  It’s been quite relaxing, and I am very glad that i have this time.

Future plans? I wish to do two things, go to DTS and attend nursing school.  Not sure which will come first, but nursing school is looking pretty likely.  I still need some time to think and pray over it.  Looking at the nearer future, in about 2 weeks i’ll be leaving VA to go to sunny Orlando to visit my dear brother Martin Goose Chang!  It’s been awhile sine i’ve been able to see his face so i’m looking forward to seeing him and meeting his life down there in FL.  I’m a bit nervous about traveling by myself mainly because i’m short and i’m afraid i won’t be able to put my bags in the overhead bins.  Yes, i know there will be plenty of people around me to help me, but still it makes me nervous (and i know there are other things i can and should be nervous about, but when i think about it, that’s all that seems to pop in my mind. hahah silly of me, i know).  Other than that, i can’t wait to get out of VA for a little bit. I love VA and all, but it’s good to get out sometimes.  I’m getting super excited!!  Hope you’re enjoying your summer! put on lots of sunscreen and enjoy the sun

-miyeC

I didn’t think it would happen to me

    It’s finals week of senior year and the most common phrase that comes out of my mouth these days is, “all i have to do is pass.” Never in my academic career did i think i would be the one to say that.  For those of you that know me, i’m not the greatest student, but i do what i can to get a good grade which consists of cramming for a few days before the actual exam.  It’s not the best technique but it’s one that i’ve become  a pro at.  I always aimed for the A in the class, i would calculate my grades to see what i needed to get an A, or if the A had already slipped from me then a B and if that slipped then usually i could just do whatever for the exam and still get a C.  haha well…this finals week i don’t really care.  I think a lot of my classes are borderline A or B, but  i dont care to try to go for it.  Writing about it is making me kind of sad that i don’t care, but in the end as long as i pass, I’m still graduating!! It’s the worst mindset, but i can’t seem to get out of it. It’s never been this bad, but hey i guess this is what it’s like to have senioritis right? I didn’t think it would happen to me, but hey…it did.  YaY for college!  

 

*Graduation is May 16, 2009 at 7:30pm in the Siegel Center.  Please come =)

*It’s Cinco de Mayo!

 

-miyeC

Haiku

Haiku #1

My name is Miye

I am leaving Richmond soon

I am really Sad

 

Haiku #2

I am friends with Steve

He is my partner in crime

I kind of miss him

 

 

-Written by: Steve Chun

Thanks…?

     Well, i’m sure as you can tell from my previous posts, i’m not much of a writer nor do i have a wide range of vocabulary.  Therefore, my entries don’t express what’s on my mind as much as i’d like them to but i think you can get a general idea of what i mean.  At least i hope you do. Having said that…

   The other day i was walking into Secam (my apt. complex) and this middle aged woman that works in the offices downstairs was trailing a couple feet behind me talking on her cell phone.  I decided to be nice and wait and stand there to hold the door for her as she walked in.  This woman, as she  walks in like she’s the queen of the world, makes eye contact with me for a few seconds, continues to walk in and doesn’t even give me a slight nod of the head, or tiny wave of the hand to say thank you.  The look on her face was as if she were saying to me “yea, you’re a peasant and i’m the queen, you better hold the door for me” ( i am aware that she probably wasn’t trying to communicate that, but that’s what the look said to me.)  I was pissed…haha yes..me, miye chang was pissed at this woman for not saying thank you for the “good” deed that i had done for her.  

   Let me tell you, this is not the first time something like this has happened to me. There have been plenty a time that i had gotten angry at someone for not saying a simple “thank you.” Silly, i know, but for those of you reading this out there know exactly what i’m talking about.  It’s like while you’re driving in traffic and you see a poor car trying to get into your lane, so you slow down to let them in and then you wait for the hand wave back, but they fail to deliver and you get angry.  

After the “queen of the world” lady passed me i went into the elevator and began to think…why is it that i got so upset at that woman for not giving me a sign of thankfulness when all i wanted to do for her was a “good” deed?  Or why is it that i get angry when someone doesn’t give me a silly hand wave to say thank you when i let them in traffic? (i know the majority of people know what i’m talking about, i hear people complain about stuff like this all the time). The truth is, i didn’t hold that door for her, i held that door for myself.  I mean ok, it was in the physical sense, but at the root of it, i wanted to be the one glorified, i wanted to be thanked, i wanted the credit of being the nice girl that held the door for the lady yapping on her cell phone.  I laughed a little at myself in the elevator because i got a glimpse at how inadequate i am to be good, and how much i need that oh so wonderful gospel that comes only by the cross through the blood of Jesus Christ.  I enjoy those moments, they’re so humbling and invoke the awesomeness of our one true God. 

Hope that made sense, and hope you enjoyed

 

-miyeC

Class of 2009

I picked up my cap and gown for graduation today and the reality of graduating and leaving richmond hit me.  I almost cried….